Cecilia, remember that time when you discovered you had coincidentally prophetic dreams? Yeah, well, NOW I'M GETTING THEM TOO. And similarly, I somehow managed to not pay attention to them.

...admittedly, my forgetting to pay attention to them makes for rather amusing stories.

In honor of Lawrenceville's SNOW DAY (omg...apocalypse, except happy!), I am wasting time. Yes. And stealing a book meme.

Here are the current top 50 books from www.whatshouldireadnext.com. Bold the books you have read. Italicise the books you might read. Cross out the books you probably won't read. Pass it on:

The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
The Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Salinger
The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy - Douglas Adams
The Great Gatsby - F.Scott Fitzgerald (...Subaru!)
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
The Time Traveler's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Harry Potter 6) - J.K. Rowling
Life of Pi - Yann Martel
Animal Farm- George Orwell
Catch-22 - Joseph Heller
The Hobbit - J. R. R. Tolkien (I hated this thing, fell asleep while reading twice, don't even know why I bothered to finish it...)
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon (Started it. Might finish it some day.)
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
1984 - George Orwell
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Book 3) - J.K. Rowling
One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
Slaughterhouse 5 - Kurt Vonnegut
Angels and Demons - Dan Brown
Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk
Neuromancer - William Gibson
Cryptonomicon - Neal Stephenson
The Secret History - Donna Tartt
A Clockwork Orange - Anthony Burgess
Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
American Gods - Neil Gaiman
Ender's Game (The Ender Saga) - Orson Scott Card (OMG. LOVE.)
Snow Crash - Neal Stephenson
A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe - C.S. Lewis
Middlesex - Jeffrey Eugenides
Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien (Finished the first book...)
Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
Good Omens - Terry Pratchett, Neil Gaiman (just bought)
Atonement - Ian McEwan
The Shadow Of The Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
The Old Man and the Sea - Ernest Hemingway
The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
Dune - Frank Herbert

Erm...yeah. I need to catch up on my reading. ^^;;

Date:	2006-02-09 16:38
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off

I HATE COMPUTERS.

COMPUTERS HATE ME.

FUCK.

Date:	2006-02-06 15:35
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	lethargic

Because I have an addiction to pointless timesinks.

And because it's strangely amusing.

Stolen from Katie and crossposted to xanga.

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4
[ ] I have many scars
[x] I tan easily
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I don't like the way I look (well, it depends sometimes...)
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I've worn glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, hurt free, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home. (considered it once when I was 8, but chickened out)
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together. (well, um, not technically anymore, but it's not like it was a divorce or something...)
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing
[ ] I've snorted while laughing
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've had surgery.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] I've been skydiving
[ ] I've stayed up all night on the phone with someone.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've been skiing
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I like someone right now. (ummm...define "like")
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I'm not over a past relationship.
[x] I miss someone right now
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I like to cuddle.
[ ] I like to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I am a terrible liar
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol. (does a sip of wine at my parents' wedding count?)
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've taken pain killers when I don't need them
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 raps CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses at 100 dollars or more a piece.
[ ] I own something from Lacoste.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie & Fitch.
[ ] I own something from Juicy Couture.
[ ] I own something I got on eBay.
[x] I own a pair of designer jeans. (well, technically, I sort of grew out of them...)

Random
[ ] I can sing well. (I don't know about this. Can I? You be the judge.)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. (usually)
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly. (I didn't before I came to this school, I really didn't!)
[ ] I sing in the shower
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat. (usually)
[ ] I've had Spam.
[ ] I like Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts. (possibly..?)
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love dark chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers for this survey are totally honest.

Hi. The SAT raped me today.

Also, Mommy stole money from me. Barged into my room and went, "I need five dollars," took it, and left. And that was that.

Won't bother to lj cut, since I seem to have forgotten how. I'm very sorry. I'll figure it out later.

Draft #2 of English sonnet. I think it makes slightly more sense now. And the iambic pentameter's improved. I hope.

When I was only small, I heard a tale
That spoke of whites and blacks and shades of grey
And of some lady, ebon-haired and frail,
With skin of winter-white and eyes that say

A prayer which asks the truth of long-lost pasts
Which shatters perfect worlds of black and white
Till all that’s left are shards of greyish glass.
And this one lady wrapped in shawls of night

Will dance on brinks of our reality,
A grey-eyed specter flitting through our dreams.
It breaks your heart five thousand ways to see
Her fading truth, that nothing is as seems.

The curtains close; she's taking one last bow.
The dreamers weep; I think she's dying now.

Date:	2006-01-18 18:13
Subject:	To quote Charlotte: "Procrastination is my lover."
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah

Hi. Today, I wrote my sonnet for English while I was supposed to be studying for my Chinese quiz. Which I'm going to fail. Yay.

Also, I suck at iambic pentameter.

( When I was only small, I heard a tale... )

Date:	2006-01-14 19:45
Subject:	I worship the inner (crack) workings of my subconscious...
Security:	Public
Mood:	stressed
Music:	"Once More With Feeling" - Buffy (musical episode)

Hi. Over the last week, I have had many, many dreams. Which I seem to actually remember rather well, which is strange.

1. I had just failed a chem test, but my dear friend Alex was marrying Orlando Bloom in the school chapel the next day, and I was supposed to be a bridesmaid in the wedding, so I couldn't afford to waste time moping over my GPA, but I couldn't really help it. I spazzed about this until it actually time for the wedding. And my escort was Amadan from "Eversummer Eve." He scared me.

2. There were chem questions on my AP Euro exam. I failed the AP Euro exam. Teacher had to take me aside to discuss my "options" in case I failed the course itself. (Also, Elizabeth Gray from the painting in the children's reading room was taking the exam with me, which was pretty damn scary in itself). Probably one of my most horrific nightmares yet.

3. I got into Princeton. (Or maybe it was Harvard. One of those annoyingly top-flight schools, anyway.) I was surprised, but in a happy way. And then my GPA dropped like whoa, and they kicked me out. Also very traumatizing dream.

4. I went to school, and every single class had a major pop test. I didn't know the answers to any of the questions. Woke up in a panic.

5. I was on a train with Cecilia. She proceeded to discuss the "night of fun" she had just had with Subaru of "Tokyo Babylon." My oncrack!subconscious always seems to like pairing them together for some reason. I think this is the only dream I had this week that did not revolve around academic failure in any way, shape, or form.

I think that these dreams may be my subconscious's special way of indicating the gradually detiorating state of my psyche...

If it weren't for the whole "only a teenager and therefore just BEGINNING to live" thing, I would so throw myself a window right now. Except that it would probably hurt. And I don't like heights. Sigh. I guess I'm not cut out for histrionic suicide after all, no matter how much chem sucks. (And boy does it suck.) Spectacularly failed latest chem test. Yay for Andrea's C average in the godforsaken course. And latest word on Lawrenceville campus says C is the new F. I hate myself.

Community service at nursing home today. Fairly decent. Charlotte and I visited with this guy who used to be a German soldier during World War II. Surprsingly, he actually had some pretty interesting stories to tell. Nice old guy, he was. But God, he wanted to die, and he said that he's already seen enough of life, and didn't care if he closed his eyes forever, and it hurt to hear that and I don't know why.

I think maybe Alex was right and my honors chem teacher is slightly senile.

Just recieved assignment in chem. Which will be graded. Took said assignment to tutor and babbled pathetically. Tutor took one look at assignment and shook her head. Apparently, my wonderful teacher just gave us a freaking AP level assignment. Hello? I'm not in an AP chemistry class. This is going to be so, so fun. Somebody shoot me please.

Oh, and yay for 6:30 PM rehearsals for ballet number in spring dance concert. I love how I'm the least experienced dancer in the entire group. Ballet = death. Graceful and pretty, but still. Deeeaaaaath. Did I mention I decided to do this thing voluntarily? Oh, yes. Yay for masochistic!Andrea.

Date:	2006-01-08 18:27
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy

Rereading old xanga entries. Conclusion derived from said entries: Andrea Tang is a blithering idiot.

I am so going to hate all these journals once I've gotten older.